my baby cries of i love you
he sobs of i’m the one
he weeps for our babies
and the damage he’s done
he tells me of forever
he speaks of forgiveness
he utters words of sorrow
and moments of weakness
a month of absence
today in sync
you cry in my arms
a tear falls as i blink
forevers with you
this much i know
but forevers just a moment
every time you go
for real
be kind and loyal to one another. understanding and loving. so often we can feel like good happens to bad people and so much bad happens to good people. the world can seem really unfair sometimes and maybe it is, but lead your life with kindness. a kindness that doesn’t seek appraisal or reverence. a kindness that’s true and genuine. i’m not a religious woman by any stretch, but the universe works in incredibly mysterious ways. call it fate or call it synchronicity. god will show you the affirmation you need when you need it.
maybe
sociopaths are the happiest people.
clear of conscious. clear from internalizing the wrongs of others. clear from internalizing their own wrongs.
in a world where things end unfairly
in a world where bad choices make a right for some people
in a world where the most despicable act goes on happily, without concern
and sleep at night
full of love
that was never mine.
YOU
have all the power. u are the one who decides to give people permission to disrespect you. DONT let people waste your fucking time. LIFE is so much more than time with and for people who don’t value you.
Ladies, don’t stay with the guy who ain’t shit. The world of better possibilities is there if u just let yourself see it.
in less than a week
my two dogs had to be put to sleep and my boyfriend of over 3 years and my absolute first love left me to be with the girl who was my best friend for 10 years. SOMEhow, i’m still standing. still waking up in the morning. shit will really try and tear you down. and no, i’m not okay but it’s becoming easier to stop blaming myself for this. it’s becoming easier to tell myself it wasn’t my fault and that this didn’t happen because something is wrong with me or because i’m somehow a bad person. i may not be able to tell myself that everyday. hell, i don’t think i’m able to say it right this second as I’m typing this and knots are forming in my stomach. it’s really hard to share this and i really don’t know if i have a big enough following for it to matter, but i guess i’m sharing this because if you ever feel like a victim, if you ever feel so absolutely lost in the world, like you’re taken for granted, like you’re a joke and that you don’t matter, you’re not alone. i may not have a million friends, i may not go out every weekend and get 100s of likes on instagram but i have two people in my life who are the most incredible humans on this earth. knowing that they love me and care about me is the only validation i’ll need in this life. their friendship has meant more to me than i can put into words. the best friends you die on when you’re in the bubble of your romantic relationship, they’ll always be there for you. and I’m blessed to say that with them by my side, somehow i’m going to be okay.
and the lesson in all this?: don’t let people make you feel bad for walking away and learn that walking away does not mean you have given up. the world will show you those who are worth fighting for tooth and nail and the world will also show you who isn’t. this isn’t a happy realization by any means, but its the healthiest one for you and them. i’m told that with discomfort comes growth so there’s only up from here, i hope.
